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elvendolli'm stressed.
i did the homework reading, but i haven't written the paper prospectus and haven't done the research i wanted to have done prior to writing it.
the prospectus itself shouldn't be too bad - i'll double space it, put the class info on it, and that's half a page already; i could get away with it without doing much research.
i'm really worried about my timeline for researching/writing the paper, though.
this weekend i'm in NJ and prepping for Tuesday's oral.
next weekend i'm in vegas, and no matter what anyone says, i never get actual work done on the plane, so i can't count on starting now.
the weekend after that is the weekend before the paper is due.
then, that Tuesday is bowie and Wednesday is a holiday party and the paper is due by Friday afternoon.
i know i have time to write it.... i'm just not sure when i'll have time to research for it : /
of course, when i'm stressing i spend too much time either spinning my wheels are working on taking deep breaths. its fun, really.
of course, in truly unproductive style, i think i'm going to indulge in a little retail therapy before dinner tonight, and work on my writeup after dinner. to compensate, i'm also planning on forcing myself to bed at 11pm tomorrow.
if i'm lucky, i won't spend more then $30 or so at the maul.
i lost my sweater hoodie and need a replacement, especially before vegas.
i need to accept that i'm a boring person. this means going out and buying overpriced warm blank tights because i really need them, and then throwing out all the cool looking tights i barely wear because the legs shrunk and they sag at the crotch in the most uncomfortable manner.
a wallet would be damn nice, and i won't object to finding a sweater or two - its too fucking cold everywhere.
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8 hours later... and i still haven't started the real meat of the writeup.
three years ago today i didn't sleep well, was frustrated by the job search and avoiding talking about health stuff.
two years ago todayi was recovering from having had way too much too drink and getting locked out of my house, and then craving sushi.
a year ago today i was talking about having gone salsa dancing with r., seeing harry potter with a group of people, getting ready to see tori amos and other stuff inbetween.
tonight, i went to the maul... kicked off my holiday shopping, got a zip-up sweater and ran out of time. rushed back to town and had a yummy but less-then-filling meal, and a guinness i prolly shouldn't have had, with![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
sol3 at river gods. and since then, i've been procrastinating.
i did the homework reading, but i haven't written the paper prospectus and haven't done the research i wanted to have done prior to writing it.
the prospectus itself shouldn't be too bad - i'll double space it, put the class info on it, and that's half a page already; i could get away with it without doing much research.
i'm really worried about my timeline for researching/writing the paper, though.
this weekend i'm in NJ and prepping for Tuesday's oral.
next weekend i'm in vegas, and no matter what anyone says, i never get actual work done on the plane, so i can't count on starting now.
the weekend after that is the weekend before the paper is due.
then, that Tuesday is bowie and Wednesday is a holiday party and the paper is due by Friday afternoon.
i know i have time to write it.... i'm just not sure when i'll have time to research for it : /
of course, when i'm stressing i spend too much time either spinning my wheels are working on taking deep breaths. its fun, really.
of course, in truly unproductive style, i think i'm going to indulge in a little retail therapy before dinner tonight, and work on my writeup after dinner. to compensate, i'm also planning on forcing myself to bed at 11pm tomorrow.
if i'm lucky, i won't spend more then $30 or so at the maul.
i lost my sweater hoodie and need a replacement, especially before vegas.
i need to accept that i'm a boring person. this means going out and buying overpriced warm blank tights because i really need them, and then throwing out all the cool looking tights i barely wear because the legs shrunk and they sag at the crotch in the most uncomfortable manner.
a wallet would be damn nice, and i won't object to finding a sweater or two - its too fucking cold everywhere.
8 hours later... and i still haven't started the real meat of the writeup.
three years ago today i didn't sleep well, was frustrated by the job search and avoiding talking about health stuff.
two years ago todayi was recovering from having had way too much too drink and getting locked out of my house, and then craving sushi.
a year ago today i was talking about having gone salsa dancing with r., seeing harry potter with a group of people, getting ready to see tori amos and other stuff inbetween.
tonight, i went to the maul... kicked off my holiday shopping, got a zip-up sweater and ran out of time. rushed back to town and had a yummy but less-then-filling meal, and a guinness i prolly shouldn't have had, with
sol3 at river gods. and since then, i've been procrastinating.
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Date: 2003-11-18 12:47 am (UTC)Oh wait, it's 4am, and I have to be at work in 4 hours.
FUCKKKKKKKK!
I take it all back.
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Date: 2003-11-18 02:06 pm (UTC)really now? ; P
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Date: 2003-11-18 02:11 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-18 02:15 pm (UTC)are they replacing your unshaven face?
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Date: 2003-11-18 02:22 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-11-18 01:42 pm (UTC)i dropped out twice, and am now taking classes part time while working full time.
what are you getting your masters in?
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Date: 2003-11-18 02:08 pm (UTC)what kind of stuff are you learning / going to be doing?
what do you have to do before you're all done?
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Date: 2003-11-19 07:32 am (UTC)its been so long i'm so sick of studying! i'm dying to get back to work again!
i know what you mean... the two times i've dropped out, i was taking full loads through fall, spring and summer, and then dropping the next fall - just going to school drives me batty! actually, taking too many consecutive classes drives me batty, because to me, school is full of always being behind and riding waves of due dates, while work tends to have a more calm pace to it.
they're on hold right now till i'm done with school, and then shortly i'm going to start working so we can build our house in vermont... but i'll prolly end up starting my business up there!
that all sounds really cool - i admire your drive and followthrough on your goals... its so easy to build dreams, and so hard to take the plunge and do what it takes to follow them