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Mar. 3rd, 2004 03:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollspring is just around the corner.
this makes me incredibly excited for the months to come, and, unfortunately, shoot myself in the foot for the now, because when its nice out, i start 'forgetting' to take st. john's wort and then slip.
i did it last week and it sucked, i did it over the weekend, but caught it when i started apologizing profusely (thanks to![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-syndicated.gif)
quinnclub for making me realize that's SAD-related) and did it again yesterday.
so, what did i do yesterday?
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lachesis called me during my drive home and we ended up going out to dinner shortly after i got home - which was really nice.
i was feeling a bit nauseous before dinner, which is a consequence of having eaten too much crappy food over the past two weeks, and ordered the curry sampler and mashed potatoes, as, in theory, that's pretty healthy.
unfortunately, the spiciness aggravated my stomach and the hot chocolate we had after dinner didn't help one bit.
and, using stomach-crankiness as an excuse i sat on my ass and got no homework done for four hours. ugh.
and, i fell into the same old cycle of feeling guilty for not doing homework and wallowing in that guilt.
and, the sucky part of depression is that seeing such a cycle doesn't give you the strength to just end it, not matter how easy ending it seems.
today?
i hit snooze too much on the way up; i ran late and i forgot to grab food to eat here before going to class - i'll need to think of a solution for that one.
the only good news is that i got a new duffel bag from overstock.com - it was decently cheap and has wheels and a handle, which eases some of the anxiety i've been feeling about getting from the prague airport to the hostel - now, doing three bus/train changes in a foreign country after a red-eye flight seems a bit less daunting.
while i was at it, i also bought a cheap cd alarmclock - it was only $23, and i've been meaning to replace my 10 year old boombox for a while now - hopefully, this thing will work nicely.
on the subject of daunting, there is the huge-ass pile of warmth that is the sleeping bagsol3 and i got last year - in theory, it can be squished down to a tolerable size, but i'm not sure that is practically possible for me. now, i'm thinking about those vacuum-seal bags and feeling entirely too consumeristic.
on top of the SAD, i think one of the reasons i'm really slacking at the homework thing is that i'm fairly resentful of school at the moment. i keep flashing back to mexico and how happy i was to be reading there, and i hate knowing that i won't get a sizeable break from school until January unless by some sort of miracle i finish my final paper for this class two weeks before the deadline.
and that deadline? may 21st. the last class? April 28th.
the midterm? April 7th.
it is finally starting to feel like these things are right around the corner, and the next thing i know, they're going to hit me like a dumpster truck (which, in turn, reminds me that i need to look over the insurance paperwork nownownow and that i should check when street cleaning starts up again)
and, i'm starting to get really excited about the trip to prague... there's just something amazing about exploring a new city and there is so much there that i can't wait to see and experience!
this makes me incredibly excited for the months to come, and, unfortunately, shoot myself in the foot for the now, because when its nice out, i start 'forgetting' to take st. john's wort and then slip.
i did it last week and it sucked, i did it over the weekend, but caught it when i started apologizing profusely (thanks to
quinnclub for making me realize that's SAD-related) and did it again yesterday.so, what did i do yesterday?
lachesis called me during my drive home and we ended up going out to dinner shortly after i got home - which was really nice.i was feeling a bit nauseous before dinner, which is a consequence of having eaten too much crappy food over the past two weeks, and ordered the curry sampler and mashed potatoes, as, in theory, that's pretty healthy.
unfortunately, the spiciness aggravated my stomach and the hot chocolate we had after dinner didn't help one bit.
and, using stomach-crankiness as an excuse i sat on my ass and got no homework done for four hours. ugh.
and, i fell into the same old cycle of feeling guilty for not doing homework and wallowing in that guilt.
and, the sucky part of depression is that seeing such a cycle doesn't give you the strength to just end it, not matter how easy ending it seems.
today?
i hit snooze too much on the way up; i ran late and i forgot to grab food to eat here before going to class - i'll need to think of a solution for that one.
the only good news is that i got a new duffel bag from overstock.com - it was decently cheap and has wheels and a handle, which eases some of the anxiety i've been feeling about getting from the prague airport to the hostel - now, doing three bus/train changes in a foreign country after a red-eye flight seems a bit less daunting.
while i was at it, i also bought a cheap cd alarmclock - it was only $23, and i've been meaning to replace my 10 year old boombox for a while now - hopefully, this thing will work nicely.
on the subject of daunting, there is the huge-ass pile of warmth that is the sleeping bag
sol3 and i got last year - in theory, it can be squished down to a tolerable size, but i'm not sure that is practically possible for me. now, i'm thinking about those vacuum-seal bags and feeling entirely too consumeristic.on top of the SAD, i think one of the reasons i'm really slacking at the homework thing is that i'm fairly resentful of school at the moment. i keep flashing back to mexico and how happy i was to be reading there, and i hate knowing that i won't get a sizeable break from school until January unless by some sort of miracle i finish my final paper for this class two weeks before the deadline.
and that deadline? may 21st. the last class? April 28th.
the midterm? April 7th.
it is finally starting to feel like these things are right around the corner, and the next thing i know, they're going to hit me like a dumpster truck (which, in turn, reminds me that i need to look over the insurance paperwork nownownow and that i should check when street cleaning starts up again)
and, i'm starting to get really excited about the trip to prague... there's just something amazing about exploring a new city and there is so much there that i can't wait to see and experience!
