value

[elvendoll]

part of yesterday's lecture was about carl marx.
as a side note, the professor said that the reason marx's theories may not apply today is that he was working from the notion that people get their self-value from their work/job, which might apply even less now then it did then.

and then, a lightbulb came on.
i realized that i don't have a concept of self-value.
i don't think of myself negatively, and i have a concept of self-worth, in that i know that i'm a good and self-sufficient person and that makes me worth something - but i don't have any concept of the value of that worth.

this ties in very easily with how i can't quite understand why some people like me as much as they do.
it is also connected to how stagnant i've been lately - without having any concept of value, i'm missing the drive to increase said value.

of course, all these words are the tip of an iceberg.
there's so much meaning in them, so much digging to do at my head... but, 2 and 2 have made 4 and i feel like i have a starting point.

Comments

[autumnsshadow.livejournal.com]

hmm...I can definitely relate to that.