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that's me, on a rollercoaster.
now, to have the everything it would take to stop the ride.

today's a bit better.
it felt like i was driving into work on the hanukah miracle - my 'low gas' light went on when i started the car, but then the gauge went to a blip above empty and stayed there for the entire ride in.
of course, it was dumb of me to embark on a commute of unknown length and time with my gas gauge on empty, but i was already late, feeling a bit off, and not up to standing in the cold for up to 10 minutes - now, i'll be doing that in a half hour or so.

my body is pure evil, and i wish i could kill it without offing myself in the process - and it's been a while since i've felt this strongly about it.

sol3 is wonderful - last night, he treated me to sushi, showed me his new moved-in place, gave me an anniversary gift and spent cuddletime with me.

tonight's amended plans include going to target and picking up shoe racks. then, at some point, i'll actually clean out the hallway in front of my room, give things homes, and make my room generally clean. at some point.

over the past two weeks, i've eaten a little over 1000mg of valerian.
generally, that isn't horribly much for me - i can take 400mg and it won't make me sleepy. but, it's the most valerian i've had in a two week period since i was 7 or so (when my mom fed it to me daily) - and really, i could use to be more sedated then i already am.

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i could use to be more sedated then i already am.

I might be able help you there, either by boring you to tears, or by chemical means :P