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[elvendoll]

day 3, and i'm still feeling a bit weird.

sleeping is weirdest of all, because i still don't seem to know where i am as i'm dozing off and am asleep, which makes for some surreal reality warps - at some point yesterday evening, i felt like i was in our house in south orange, nj, where i haven't lived since i was 13. something about the sound of dripped from a blind-covered window and someone opening the fridge in the kitchen just snapped me back and even after i figured out that wasn't where i was at, it took me way too long to pinpoint that i was in my own room in cambridge.

waking up is difficult, too. moreso then usual, the alarmclock starts serving some other purpose in the dream-universe and i couldn't force myself to get up at a decent time. i will need to find a way to crack down on myself next week and make it to work on time.

after bm, i went about clearing my inbox, and have finally managed to get it to be around 20 messages. sure, this means i have about 20 emails left to reply to, but it's much better then having 70+ emails in there (more then half of which turned out to have been bm-related)

because i'm on a break from school, i'm reading for pleasure - and it makes me so incredibly happy. i borrowed love in the time of cholera from goat and am really enjoying it.
sadly, i will probably need to start school-reading next week.
i signed up for one online class while in reno, and don't seem to have access to the coursework yet - and need to check about that today. i also need to make a decision about taking a second online class today, and then make decisions about bellydancing and sewing classes over the weekend. yeah.

i'm also in a state of weirdness about my schedule. somewhere between not having had any time for the few weeks before BM and then going away, something warped - i have no concrete plans at all, want to make plans with people and then stare at my (mental)(blank) calendar and just sputter because i feel like committing to anything is bound to break something. mostly, i prolly just need to take the leap.

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[darxus.livejournal.com]

You belly dancing sounds good. tisana has taken some classes in this area, is impressive to watch, and has been talking about taking getting back into classes.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

actually, it's potentially disastarous - i can't find the beat in techno music, so belly dancing would either help me or be rather disturbing.

[darxus.livejournal.com]

I don't believe you.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

that i can't find a beat in a techno song? it's actually frightengly true. sol3 has been trying to help me learn through a 'practice makes perfect' idea - when around loud music, i'll put my hand on his and start tapping what i think the beat is, and he corrects me whenever i falter.
i also can't walk and drink at the same time, unless said drinking is done through a straw of some sort - you should see the looks i get when i buy 20oz bottles of iced tea and grab straws to go with them!

recently, sol3 noticed that i don't take breaths at regular intervals, and i'm curious if that is the cause of the above malfunctions, and whether my mitral valve prolapse is the cause of the irregular breathing.

[darxus.livejournal.com]

When you tap his hand, are your taps at least consistant ? Same pace as the beat he's hearing ?

I've noticed people seem to... catch different points in beats... while dancing and stuff. Makes attempting to dance closely with other people difficult sometimes.

Reguardless, you should dance. It is a very important part of being alive. I don't care what exactly your relationship is with the rhythm, as long as you're enjoying it.

[darxus.livejournal.com]

Oh, I also... often stop walking to drink. I can do both at the same time, but I think it's not nearly as satisfying.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

When you tap his hand, are your taps at least consistant ? Same pace as the beat he's hearing ?

nope.

sometimes, i'll get it for about 30-45 seconds, and then i'll lose it again.

Reguardless, you should dance. It is a very important part of being alive. I don't care what exactly your relationship is with the rhythm, as long as you're enjoying it.

i do dance, just badly : P

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

i literally cannot walk and drink - i end up with liquid down the wrong throat (and a subsequent coughing fit) within 2-3 sips.

[darxus.livejournal.com]

Fascinating. I am glad you dance.

Sometime please tap on me like this, I'm quite curious.

I've always thought people like that should try SCA combat, because there is so much rhythm to it, if you could break out of it you should have a tactical advantage. Unfortunately you're a bit too small for that.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

Sometime please tap on me like this, I'm quite curious.

can do : )

I've always thought people like that should try SCA combat, because there is so much rhythm to it, if you could break out of it you should have a tactical advantage. Unfortunately you're a bit too small for that.

there's an advantage to going outside the beat if you can keep it - but, being unable to keep/hold one would be a disadvantage to people who naturally flow with a steady beat, just because it'd take more effort to maintain something the other person is not putting effort into.