this feeling crappy bullshit has to stop
Nov. 17th, 2000 02:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolli went to bed around 1am last night... for me, thats not too early & not horribly late.
bill zonked right out, and i kept laying there, awake...
over time i think i was in & out of a light sleep.. i was very frustrated that i couldn't fall asleep and that spilled over into the half-sleep visions i was having, and made them really frustrating..
finally, at some point, i had to go to the bathroom...
when i got up i also realized that i was really thirsty and that my stomach was hurting from ulcer-ache...
so i had some water and a gulp of mylanta, too, and went back to bed.
when i checked the time, i realized it was almost 6am - and i still hadn't really fallen asleep.
surprisingly, when i got into the room bill was semi-conscious and asked me if i was ok... that in itself made me feel a bit better... usually he sleeps through all my late night wakefulness, and this just made me feel really cared for... and the way he pulled me up close to him and held me tight was wonderful, too...
some time after that i finally fell asleep...
i let myself sleep late because of how horrible i slept during the night, had some odd dreams... nothing i can remember clearly now, though...
i didn't feel well when i woke up and now i feel both better and worse...
the cold is retreating a bit - my head feels less heavy, but my tummy hurts again.
i am trying to think of something i can eat that could calm it down, but not coming up with much, unfortunately.
as far as the job search, its frustrating right now.
again, its at that point where the visit to NJ is making me unable to set up interviews, which is frustarating in and of itself, and then there's the posibility of it being postponed again because of my cold.. and its damn frustrating...
its sad, i'm not even looking forward to the weekend...
bill zonked right out, and i kept laying there, awake...
over time i think i was in & out of a light sleep.. i was very frustrated that i couldn't fall asleep and that spilled over into the half-sleep visions i was having, and made them really frustrating..
finally, at some point, i had to go to the bathroom...
when i got up i also realized that i was really thirsty and that my stomach was hurting from ulcer-ache...
so i had some water and a gulp of mylanta, too, and went back to bed.
when i checked the time, i realized it was almost 6am - and i still hadn't really fallen asleep.
surprisingly, when i got into the room bill was semi-conscious and asked me if i was ok... that in itself made me feel a bit better... usually he sleeps through all my late night wakefulness, and this just made me feel really cared for... and the way he pulled me up close to him and held me tight was wonderful, too...
some time after that i finally fell asleep...
i let myself sleep late because of how horrible i slept during the night, had some odd dreams... nothing i can remember clearly now, though...
i didn't feel well when i woke up and now i feel both better and worse...
the cold is retreating a bit - my head feels less heavy, but my tummy hurts again.
i am trying to think of something i can eat that could calm it down, but not coming up with much, unfortunately.
as far as the job search, its frustrating right now.
again, its at that point where the visit to NJ is making me unable to set up interviews, which is frustarating in and of itself, and then there's the posibility of it being postponed again because of my cold.. and its damn frustrating...
its sad, i'm not even looking forward to the weekend...
