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Nov. 4th, 2004 10:56 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollthe plan for yesterday was:
go to kmart after work to pick up window sealer stuff
come home, eat
go to yoga
come home, eat a little more and then do dishes, clean kitchen, clean my room, answer personal emails, email psych professor and possibly do workwork or school reading.
what actually happened was:
got to kmart, and they don't have window plastic in yet. i got lots of toilet paper, garbage bags and light bulbs while i was there.
came home with barely enough time to chew a granola bar while changing into yoga clothes.
went to yoga (yay! tripod headstands*)
came home, took too long settling in before eating
washed dishes, started picking up the living room/kitchen area, but got less then halfway done
sat there with my ass glued to the couch, unable to do anything else productive.
i've been totally useless after work this week. i'm just broken. another telltale sign - the thought of thanksgiving no longer makes me giddy. it makes me smile, but i don't feel like there's giddy left in me. there's one pipe dream that sparks hope, but it's so far up a pipe calling it a daydream would be more accurate. and scariest of all is that this is me on st. john's wort. i'm not sure i would be capable of getting out of bed without it with how i'm feeling right now.
* i taught myself how to do tripod headstands when i was 7 or so, and it's the only "difficult" yoga thing that's a breeze for me - and this is the first time we've done them in class. unfortunately, the teacher didn't want people going into full headstands last night, and instead, suggested that those of us that could try going from being halfway into the headstand into a crane - that was neat!
go to kmart after work to pick up window sealer stuff
come home, eat
go to yoga
come home, eat a little more and then do dishes, clean kitchen, clean my room, answer personal emails, email psych professor and possibly do workwork or school reading.
what actually happened was:
got to kmart, and they don't have window plastic in yet. i got lots of toilet paper, garbage bags and light bulbs while i was there.
came home with barely enough time to chew a granola bar while changing into yoga clothes.
went to yoga (yay! tripod headstands*)
came home, took too long settling in before eating
washed dishes, started picking up the living room/kitchen area, but got less then halfway done
sat there with my ass glued to the couch, unable to do anything else productive.
i've been totally useless after work this week. i'm just broken. another telltale sign - the thought of thanksgiving no longer makes me giddy. it makes me smile, but i don't feel like there's giddy left in me. there's one pipe dream that sparks hope, but it's so far up a pipe calling it a daydream would be more accurate. and scariest of all is that this is me on st. john's wort. i'm not sure i would be capable of getting out of bed without it with how i'm feeling right now.
* i taught myself how to do tripod headstands when i was 7 or so, and it's the only "difficult" yoga thing that's a breeze for me - and this is the first time we've done them in class. unfortunately, the teacher didn't want people going into full headstands last night, and instead, suggested that those of us that could try going from being halfway into the headstand into a crane - that was neat!
