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[elvendoll]

i'm kind of curious about why i'm still feeling really wiped. having felt crappy yesterday and the day before doesn't feel like a good enough reason to still be feeling like i'm swimming through molasses today, and i got 6 hours of sleep both nights.

this morning, i've been cheered up by sol3aimluvins, virtual hugs from kittypie and pir, sweet words to explain the lack of a phone call last night and a mardi gras mask surprise in my cube. this means today has got to be a good day, right?

and yeah, coming into the office, seeing mardi gras beads on a couple of cubes and people and then finding a kitty mask in my cube definitely cheered up my morning.

random stuff:

i've decided that i don't like what cell phones have done to communication. i don't like being called just to chat if i'm in the middle of something, and i hate the idea of doing that to someone else. before, calling someone at home meant that they were at home and less likely to be busy when they answered. now, there's a very short list of people who i call to talk, and even feel awkward calling people for impromptu plans.
for the most part, this means that if i'd like to talk to someone on the phone, i feel a need to schedule it, and right now, that's making me feel a little awkward, too.

on being reserved: beyond social anxiety, i tend to think that unoriginal/too obvious/too tangential thoughts are not worth vocalizing most of the time, which makes me less likely to pipe up in a conversation of 3+ people. beyond that, even when i do have something i want to throw out, i can never seem to get the timing right, and either interrupt someone or miss an opening in the conversation. and for all the people watching i do, i still have no clue how people just flow with finding those openings. to add to that, i've come to incorporate being quiet into my self-image, which makes it slightly more difficult to come out of my shell.

i scratched up against an internal issue so sensitive that even thinking about it ups my tension levels. normally, this would feel really good, in that there's something rather obvious to work through. only my work stress rubs up against this issue enough that i think now would be a terrible time to work on it, and this resignation makes me feel defeated and incomplete. and, in the same way i could never stop running my tongue over a cavity whenever i've had one, i can stop looping back to this, and i'm curious how long i'll keep spiking my tension levels and where that'll get me.

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[maighread.livejournal.com]

I also hate cell phones.

*hug*

Kibbi in the future perhaps?

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

Kibbi in the future perhaps?

near future? please?

[maighread.livejournal.com]

yes! remind me, are you around or away this weekend?

*hug*

[tk7602.livejournal.com]

i've decided that i don't like what cell phones have done to communication. i don't like being called just to chat if i'm in the middle of something, and i hate the idea of doing that to someone else. before, calling someone at home meant that they were at home and less likely to be busy when they answered. now, there's a very short list of people who i call to talk, and even feel awkward calling people for impromptu plans.
for the most part, this means that if i'd like to talk to someone on the phone, i feel a need to schedule it, and right now, that's making me feel a little awkward, too.

i don't think it's that bad... i know that myself, i just don't answer my phone if it's inconvenient. it's the same for my home or cell. i only answer if i'm able to do it without interfering with what i'm doing.

like last night, thenetimp and i were playing halo2, and the phone rang. we thought about pausing, but i decided i didn't care.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

most of the time, i do the same thing, but there's been enough times when i looked at the caller id and the curiousity overtook me...

[kittypie.livejournal.com]

honestly, thats kind of why i let you call me :) but i never really thought about it, it's just the way it happens. at least with me you can rest assured that you have (most of the time when im not running around) my attention when you call and that you are never putting me out at all. i love talking to you. *intense hug* hehe

[dilletante.livejournal.com]

i've been dragging my ass in subtle and less-subtle ways most of the week. for me, more sleep would probably help.

i tend to think that unoriginal/too obvious/too tangential thoughts are not worth vocalizing most of the time,

yeah, me too. i'm more willing to go with the tangential ones, though, to keep a conversation going. though that's easier with fewer people.

[elvendoll.livejournal.com]

i've been dragging my ass in subtle and less-subtle ways most of the week. for me, more sleep would probably help.

do you sleep well on planes, or are you going to catch up before then?

[dilletante.livejournal.com]

i'm probably doomed. but i do sleep well on planes, in fact.

[moominmolly.livejournal.com]

Knowing us, we'll probably sleep on the plane... :)

[piratedan.livejournal.com]

I hope you're in the minority on the cell phone front. I want people (that I know and/or like) to call me. If I'm busy, I'll tell them and call them back. But I'd rather talk to them than not.