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wow did yesterday afternoon suck.
i'm not sure i can remember the last time i got a surge of hormones like that. there were moments there that i could tell myself that it's just hormones and that i can take a step back from it, but then i'd fall back into it again. huge thanks to sol3 to coming over to deal with me.

yesterday evening was better - hormones receded a bit, i took extra advil and enjoyed dinner and the fluttr effect show - i know wish i could've stayed for both sets, but between being tired and still weird, i needed to get home.

i've been feeling extra shy/introverted/un-confident lately, and i think some of the reasons why started becoming apparent last night - for one, travel usually brings out my strongest suits but between the super-cold and not picking up the language as well as i would've liked, the trip to france didn't do that, and that's left me a bit off-kilter. things with k. changed a bit when i got back, and the trip that i was totally looking forward to now makes me a little nervous, and i've gained some weight that i'm unhappy about. with all luck, i'll be able to recenter myself this weekend.

and there was more i wanted to write about, but my mind has wandered to other places...

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