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Dec. 2nd, 2000 10:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendollso its getting into the eving..
i kinda feel like a bad 80's movie - not knowing what to do with myself on a saturday night.
a part of me feels icky for being home alone, but thats been a constant all day... a part of me wants to stay home 7 veg - watch tv, read, play computer games... only i am afraid of not being able to fall asleep. i've been having a hard time falling asleep at night as it is, and to be doing it alone is going to be harder.
i even briefly considered taking off for NJ.
it wasn't a new thought - i had been considering it earlier on, too, but when i was feeling sick last night i'd crossed it off as an option. by the time i thought of it tonight, i wouldn't even get there till 2am...
i'm giving some htought to going to manray... only id on't want to get there and not know anybody there... its bad enough that i can barely afford to go out, and to go out, and then have a louy time would add insult to injury. i called ed & jon & chris' house, by they're all staying in.. and tobi said she may go earlier on in the week, but i haven't seen her online today, so i don't know : /
blah.
and its so damn cold!
but... to add some good news, i cleaned a lot of the kitchen today, and when max came home, he got this burst of energy and rather then just helping me pick up the rest of the house, rearranged (and swept: ) ) the whole living room so now it looks all clean : )
of course now the access stuff have to be sorted & taken out of the kitchen, and i still hve to clean mine & bill's room, but thats for tomorrow.
& damnit, i still feel shitty.
maybe i'll go out just to get out of the damn house.. i don't even know : (
i kinda feel like a bad 80's movie - not knowing what to do with myself on a saturday night.
a part of me feels icky for being home alone, but thats been a constant all day... a part of me wants to stay home 7 veg - watch tv, read, play computer games... only i am afraid of not being able to fall asleep. i've been having a hard time falling asleep at night as it is, and to be doing it alone is going to be harder.
i even briefly considered taking off for NJ.
it wasn't a new thought - i had been considering it earlier on, too, but when i was feeling sick last night i'd crossed it off as an option. by the time i thought of it tonight, i wouldn't even get there till 2am...
i'm giving some htought to going to manray... only id on't want to get there and not know anybody there... its bad enough that i can barely afford to go out, and to go out, and then have a louy time would add insult to injury. i called ed & jon & chris' house, by they're all staying in.. and tobi said she may go earlier on in the week, but i haven't seen her online today, so i don't know : /
blah.
and its so damn cold!
but... to add some good news, i cleaned a lot of the kitchen today, and when max came home, he got this burst of energy and rather then just helping me pick up the rest of the house, rearranged (and swept: ) ) the whole living room so now it looks all clean : )
of course now the access stuff have to be sorted & taken out of the kitchen, and i still hve to clean mine & bill's room, but thats for tomorrow.
& damnit, i still feel shitty.
maybe i'll go out just to get out of the damn house.. i don't even know : (
