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[elvendoll]

sometime 5 years ago, little girl had thrown up while bugmanhai and i were both at work. i got home before he did, waited until he got home and let him know it happened. he asked me why i didn't clean it up, and i told him that if i wanted to be cleaning up after cats, i'd have one of my own.

i've been referring to the cat as "mine" for some time now, but it still feels weird.
she's so independent, i don't think of her as belonging to anyone. i constantly feel like a bad cat-parent because i'm out of the house so much and am generally just confused by the idea that she seems to pick me as her human. in some ways, i really like it, but i'm still very confused by it.
because of this, i'm also very torn on the idea of her "needing" me. she's a cat - she can't tell me what or who she needs. i have no clue how cat emotions work, and what her level of attachment to me is - hell, i can't even tell if her being attached to me is just me being delusional. but i'm responsible for her, and it seems like she's aware of that, and i have no clue how much my physical presence figures into my responsibility to her - and not knowing that makes my head spin on all the options i may or may not have in the next few months.

Comments

[klingonlandlady.livejournal.com]

I think cats have emotions rather like ours. They do like some people better than others, miss people, need cuddles and attention, etc. This probably doesn't help...

[darxus.livejournal.com]

Just assume she's a human without the ability to speak english. And with the body of a cat. Words aren't the only way to communicate.