elvendoll

its being a weird day. i am just so out of it right now... i don't think i ever really woke up & have been moping around all day.
the shower i took after the last entry didn't do anything at all, and i spent time after that just staring at the monitor.
for dinner, everyone here (me & bill, max, matty & a friend of matty's) went to johny o's. yum. i was craving their mashed potatoes when i came in, and decided to have fish & chips, only substituing mashed potaotes for the fries. can i say yum again? and their milkshakes are just so great. i can't belive a place like that is that close to my house & i didn't know about it till like last month. now if it was only open till after-hours...
getting home, i vegged a bit more. went by safehuse for a little while, and picked up most of the stuff i left there last night - most of which were my gifts. got to take a closer look at the dream dictionary the maxies got me (thank you!!) - it rocks! : )
and now i am home and just really out of it. i have the door closed but can still hear the boys cleaning out there. i feel shitty for not helping, but i really don't have the enrgy right now.
also found out earlier int he day that the reasonthe dishes were allpiled up is because the sink got clogged, so it wasn't possible (or practical) to wash them before going out to get draino. made me feel bad about being annoyed with them.argh. i feel absolutely exhausted, btu i know that if i fall asleep right now it will only be a nap and i will wake up later on in the night, be in a bad mood & have a hard time falling back asleep : /
and also stressing about the stasia situation. it had totally not clicked that she was going ot be in boston this coming weekend - the same weekend i was planning on going to see my family.
initially, i was considering going up there saturday morning, but then my mom told me it will be my grandmother's bday get-together on friday. so i said i would definately be there. then and started considering asking work if i oculd take off around 3 to beat some traffic. then today i get IM'd by stasia wanting ot make plans for friday lunchtime. now if i got back to her saying friday dinnertime would be better, i'd never make it to NJ at a reasonable hour. the only way i can see of making things work is if i take friday off. only i don't know how i feel about taking a day off of work this early on, or just what kind of an excuse would sound good. it stressed me out so much i almost called my mom for advice before realizing its midnight *grumble*
the only workaround i can think of is if stasia is coming up thursday night & could see me then, but i won't know that till at least tomorow too.
*grumble*
maybe i'll say my mom scheduled a dr's appointment for me & i'd forgotten aboutit??
its funny. usually i hate lying, and will not do it. but i have this thing of its okay to lie to family & administrators because in those cases, its usually a lot more important to look good then to be honest. but i'd still feel pretty bad taking the day off *grumble*
funny how i can write this here, considering 2 of my coworkers are on LJ (that i know of)

blah.
and velvet is still down.
its really starting to get annoying considering how much shite i keep up there : /

and damnit, one of these days, i'm just going to splurge and get myself one of those massaging chairs. i think it owuld reall do me a world of good.