there needs to be a magic wand.
Dec. 31st, 2000 01:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
elvendolli feel a little better today. but, unofrtunately, that isn't saying much. on meds, i still feel worse then how your average cold makes me feel without meds.
nope, no fun at all.
to top it off, the boys have barely started cleaning the house. i am trying incredibly hard not to letit get to me, but its not working 100%.
i wish i could just get up, and start clearing stuff out. i wish i could just handle their slack for now... but if i try to just stand for a while, i get dizzy.
*wanting to scream*
to top it off, i look like shit. i planned to wear my new dress tonight, but i don't know if i'll be able to pull it off... even the shower sounds trying right now.
that, and to be honest... i am scared.
i am scared of feeling neglected when everybody is having thier fun & i'm sick by my lonesome.
talk about creating your own hell with expectations.
*sigh*
i am just so hoping i will somehow feel better.
so hoping.
nope, no fun at all.
to top it off, the boys have barely started cleaning the house. i am trying incredibly hard not to letit get to me, but its not working 100%.
i wish i could just get up, and start clearing stuff out. i wish i could just handle their slack for now... but if i try to just stand for a while, i get dizzy.
*wanting to scream*
to top it off, i look like shit. i planned to wear my new dress tonight, but i don't know if i'll be able to pull it off... even the shower sounds trying right now.
that, and to be honest... i am scared.
i am scared of feeling neglected when everybody is having thier fun & i'm sick by my lonesome.
talk about creating your own hell with expectations.
*sigh*
i am just so hoping i will somehow feel better.
so hoping.
