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elvendollso i've been really stressy lately... and overall i've been descibed as intense... and i just now had a revelation: my family is even worse!
usually i cannot spend more then 15-20 minutes around anyone other then just my mom, because it starts getting to me, but i've never yet added the twos to make a four...
*sigh* i wonder what that says about my prospects for improvement... or about my family that every little thing seems to matter a universe and a half, and at least 10 things have to be kept up on all at once...
and its odd, because i don't remember anything resembling this from childhood, so that makes me wonder if i've just become sensitive to it since moving our, of its something that has recently cropped up...
in any case, just thought that needed to be written down... and in a few minutes i will have to go back upstairs and plunge into it all again - i am just praying that tea will not take too long and then all the grandparents will leave... so that the house will be calmer again...
the other thing bugging me is that i'm unhappy debbie (my 9 year old sister) is back... i know i am supposed to love her, and deep down i probably do... but her attitude drives me totally batty! and when she is home. the moments of escape from it are few and far between... *sigh*
and i'm sleepy, too... and on the bored side since noone seems to be around online today (except for my friend dave, who was trying to convince me to drive down to the city to see him - something i'm just not in the mood to do (the driving into the city, not seeing him)) and i'm pretty much cut off from other types of communication...
*blargh*
usually i cannot spend more then 15-20 minutes around anyone other then just my mom, because it starts getting to me, but i've never yet added the twos to make a four...
*sigh* i wonder what that says about my prospects for improvement... or about my family that every little thing seems to matter a universe and a half, and at least 10 things have to be kept up on all at once...
and its odd, because i don't remember anything resembling this from childhood, so that makes me wonder if i've just become sensitive to it since moving our, of its something that has recently cropped up...
in any case, just thought that needed to be written down... and in a few minutes i will have to go back upstairs and plunge into it all again - i am just praying that tea will not take too long and then all the grandparents will leave... so that the house will be calmer again...
the other thing bugging me is that i'm unhappy debbie (my 9 year old sister) is back... i know i am supposed to love her, and deep down i probably do... but her attitude drives me totally batty! and when she is home. the moments of escape from it are few and far between... *sigh*
and i'm sleepy, too... and on the bored side since noone seems to be around online today (except for my friend dave, who was trying to convince me to drive down to the city to see him - something i'm just not in the mood to do (the driving into the city, not seeing him)) and i'm pretty much cut off from other types of communication...
*blargh*
