i don't think i like today

[elvendoll]

bill and i overslept.
by a lot.
for some reason the alarm clock didn't ring...
figures, after the cat was an annoying brat about forcing us up by 9am all weekend, today she would just let us sleep.
*sigh*
so i missed my first class... after i was so determined to not miss it.
and now it seems like i just sat down, and its already time to shower & run off to the psych class *grumble*
and i have this big ball of anxiety regarding later on today... bill is oging to be working till midnight. so in theory, i will have lots of time to myself - time to clean, do homework and just get 'me time'. but i am just so fucking scared that i will slack again... i mean i got extra hangers so that i oculd clean the room before labor day weekend, and its still a mess!
...my mom always said if i spent the time i spend stressing over something actually doing it my life would be a lot happier, and i think she's incredibly right, but stopping the cycle is hard.
kinda like my grandma's best friend's advice - her rule of thumb is to force yourself to do one thing that you don't want to do every day, and then that one thing becomes easier to do, and you can move to another, and it strengthens your willpower & self confidence.
and i remember how far away i was from being able to do that back in high school... and i know i am so much better now... but still nowhere where i should be : (
hrmm.. time ot try concertating on good things... well, my tummy has been quiet so far today...
and the house is empty... thats definately a good thing...
actually, time to just run & shower...