i must be doing somehting wrong...

[elvendoll]

bad day after bad day, and i don't know how to break the cycle.
i know its all in my perceptions... and i know i need to tell myself to chill out a lot... only one thing i've noticed is that lately i've started going from calm straight to anxiety, skipping over plain stressed like its not even in there...
i don't know how much of that is good, but i just don't like it.
morning has been tolearably ok, but then i made up my mind that i wanted to get out for lunch. and i got denied... adam was told he can't, and the one person here i'm comfortable asking can't, either..
so here i am, SOL and trying to curb my 'princess didn't get what she wants' frustration. (trust me, its not that easy)
and i had planned ot have chinese food for lunch today, btu have already had some for breakfast, so now its the last thing i want to eat.
c'est la vie. i'm going to try to concentrate on the mushroom pasta leftovers i have in the fridge at home (yum!)

heh.. it seems like such a pretty day out.. if it was only warmer & i knew of a place to go to just sit on my car and chill... i remember when i first got the maxima, sometimes i'd go to the denville reservation, and just sit there on the trunk of the car (well, it was my favorite place in the whole wide world! (the trunk of my car, no the reservation)), look around me, and chill & read or write...
i really miss doing things like that.
i really miss the way i'd wake up on saturday morning, get my mind set on a spot in NYC, and just go there. it was an hour drive then, but i still did it, and loved it. now most of boston is like a half hour away one way or another, and i can't remember the last time i actually did anything remotely similar!

blah. i was starting to feel a bit better before that call... nothing like people being bitchy about someone doing them a favor...

so.. i've decided to put myself on strict tight-wad mode.
i bought the tent.
i bought 2 dressed on ebay yesterday...
and bill and i went out to diiner with morph & tessa last night.
that means i've spent way too much money!
but scarily enough, i'm becoming addicted to johny o's... thier food is just really really good, and their shakes have officially been dubbed 'liquid chocolate crack' by tessa : ) (yum!)...

also got an idea for a side little project i want to do. i still don't know how/if/when i'd be able to do it, but i really like the idea and am hoping to both find a way to do it, and have the time to do it right. and if all goes well, it'd make me some money, too : )

but i think thats it for me for now.

Comments

[lostphrack.livejournal.com]

I've really become found of pork fried rice in the past few months.

I know you don't like meat but..still..I figured it was worth sharing.

I really like ordering it as take out and then eating it out of the box while doing stuff online.

It makes me feel like a hardcore computer geek, when I'm really only an amature computer geek.

[ged.livejournal.com]

At work you're not far from the Blue Hills Reservation in Milton. Maybe five minutes by car. Maybe ten. Keith can give you good directions (he grew up in Milton). I can give you directions but I think there are shorter ways than I know.

Ged