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elvendollone year ago
(odd, because dave was in a dream i had last night, too)
two years ago
seeing this, i know i am more of a person then i was then. i feel like there is a lot more depth to who i am now. i feel that i see the world differently, more completely.
but i keep going back to 4 years ago. when i first moved out... i was a lot more confident, indepenendent, issue free... i was full of excitement over ideas, thoughts... and i'd lost that. i miss it. i don't know if i could get it back or how i would try...
reading about the maxima made me really want a car of my own. i so have no clue when thats going to happen, as my stepdad, supposedly, doesn't have time to look for a car for me, and as getting one in NJ is more preferable to finding one here, leaves me in a little of a tough spot. but, i did tell them that i am not coming to visit until there's a car waiting for me (i really don't want to spend 8 hours behind the wheel of the clunker loaner!), so that should give them some motivation.
another thing that had gone unmentioned in the last week is that abi can not (kinda) say my name : ) she will say it pointing at my picture, once on the phone with me, and once my mom saw her running around with the phone to her ear, calling my name (i am pretty much the only person who talks to her over the phone). she's only 17 months old - i think this is amazing. and i do really miss her...
something that has been on my mind the past few days is the desire to go clothes shopping.
in terms of winter clothing, aside from my leather pants, which i don't like too much anyways, 99% of my winter clothing is clothing that i have had for the past 3 years, if not more. and a lot of it is starting to show age... and most of it feels very blah to me... but i find it so hard to justify buying new clothes when i have things i could wear, especially as i am rather broke right now... but i also really want new clothes : /
i also need another trim & henna treatment, too. just another thing ont he list of things i've been neglecting.
i think i better stop here...
(odd, because dave was in a dream i had last night, too)
two years ago
seeing this, i know i am more of a person then i was then. i feel like there is a lot more depth to who i am now. i feel that i see the world differently, more completely.
but i keep going back to 4 years ago. when i first moved out... i was a lot more confident, indepenendent, issue free... i was full of excitement over ideas, thoughts... and i'd lost that. i miss it. i don't know if i could get it back or how i would try...
reading about the maxima made me really want a car of my own. i so have no clue when thats going to happen, as my stepdad, supposedly, doesn't have time to look for a car for me, and as getting one in NJ is more preferable to finding one here, leaves me in a little of a tough spot. but, i did tell them that i am not coming to visit until there's a car waiting for me (i really don't want to spend 8 hours behind the wheel of the clunker loaner!), so that should give them some motivation.
another thing that had gone unmentioned in the last week is that abi can not (kinda) say my name : ) she will say it pointing at my picture, once on the phone with me, and once my mom saw her running around with the phone to her ear, calling my name (i am pretty much the only person who talks to her over the phone). she's only 17 months old - i think this is amazing. and i do really miss her...
something that has been on my mind the past few days is the desire to go clothes shopping.
in terms of winter clothing, aside from my leather pants, which i don't like too much anyways, 99% of my winter clothing is clothing that i have had for the past 3 years, if not more. and a lot of it is starting to show age... and most of it feels very blah to me... but i find it so hard to justify buying new clothes when i have things i could wear, especially as i am rather broke right now... but i also really want new clothes : /
i also need another trim & henna treatment, too. just another thing ont he list of things i've been neglecting.
i think i better stop here...
